This is so hard because you know this isn’t the first time they’ve had this conversation. They probably have it every time he visits her. He squares his shoulders before he goes in there, and hopes for the best, relatively speaking. You can see it in his face in that second gif - the way he literally crumples when he sees that he’s lost her again.
I’m shocked that I haven’t seen more people mention this scene, because this scene KILLED me. This is the only scene I cried in. I found a lot of Bucky’s scenes disturbing and I hurt for him, but this is the most heartbreaking scene for me. Because Steve remembers Peggy just like she was in the first movie. It was like a split second ago for him that Peggy was that amazing, intelligent, vivacious woman who inspired him to do amazing things. Sure Steve is shocked and rattled when he sees Bucky again, but Bucky still looks like BUCKY. Bucky was in the same time warp Steve was in and they both still look like they remember each other. But Peggy is the visual proof for Steve that everything has changed for him. She’s had a life. An entire life without him. She even points out that she grieves that HE hasn’t lived like she did. Peggy is the evidence of what Steve lost. He can sink himself in SHIELD and he can fight the good fight and try to forget that he’s not completely displaced in the world, but visiting with Peggy is both necessary for Steve because she’s the only one who remembers and also brutally painful because she’s proof that Steve is a man out of time and place. And the extra punch to the gut that she has dementia and her reaction to him is that of finding him and being heartbroken for their loss of each other. And that this obviously isn’t the first time she’s had this reaction. Steve has to know that he probably doesn’t have all that long with her either in the grand scheme of things. They find each other and lose each other and find each other over and over in this horrible, painful cycle. And soon he’s going to be utterly, completely alone. Sure he can befriend Sam and Natasha and forge new relationships, but there’s always going to be that little bit of disconnect.
And gawd does Chris Evans break your heart with his reaction. You can physically see his heart ripping apart all over his face and then him pull it together to comfort Peggy. There’s that quote floating around about the difference between “manpain” and legitimate horrible emotional pain that a character is going through. This is it. This is the moment you see it. Steve might try to hide it as much as possible and tries to be the shining beacon, but he is a man in LEGITIMATE pain. He has every right to want to curl in a ball and never come out.
This is the plan, get the elevator, while I distract him.
Bucky Barnes // Chris Samnee and Bettie Breitweiser Art Appreciation
Steve & Bucky + bridges
(the pattern pointed out to me by Evelin bc im slow like that and didn’t realize this was a thing ????)
star wars meme: eight characters (1/8) → C-3PO
"I am C-3PO, human-cyborg relations."
I know this neighborhood. I got beat up in that alley. And that parking lot. And behind that diner.